I believe in miracles!!!

well it has been a while since I last wrote. So much has been going on with work and my home life. Some exciting and a lot not so good, but I decided it was time to write because Matt and I started a new chapter so to speak. To start off with last year in Jan. Matt lost his job and we hit bottom. It was hard, but we made it through still hand and hand. We are closer because of it. He found a another job a couple weeks later and we started over. We had the kids move 20 minutes away instead of 9 hours, which is so exciting for us, we get to see them whenever we want. We also had a vasectomy reversal in 2008, because we wanted to start a family. We went a year and we started to give up. I had all kind of test done to find out if anything was wrong with me. The doctors found nothing. So it was Matt's turn. So he went and gave a sample and we waited for the results....2 days later we were told we would not be able to do it on our own...We were devastated. So again we had a let down, but we never quit trying...

So moving on... time went by and so did life. We had another let down and the best week that I will never forget...the day started off good. I was in the car praying for my enemy, to let her go and not be angry and to be a bigger person. I thought I was being a good person and moving on after 2 years. at 9am I found out Matt lost his job again. I was so angry at God for doing this, for giving me bad news after bad news after bad news. I was done. I didn't want to pray, I didn't want to go to church, but Matt wanted to talk to the Preacher. I went, but I stood my ground. So the week went on and I did too. I started to get depressed and a hopeless feeling, so we went down to my parents to get away from everything. Little did I know this night would change my life forever. :o) So I was late a day...I told Matt and he told me to go take a test for giggles. so I did and it was positive. So my week from crap to holy cow!!! Was it true? really? so I drove to another town just to get more test (because Walters didn't ave any) I took three all together...all positive... yay!!!! I am happily 16 weeks and the baby is healthy and strong and Matt has found a better job that will be a better future for the whole family. I am extremely happy with my life now...Just thought I would share my life so far... Oh yeah, God and I have made amends...He forgave me for being so stubborn...lol and showed who was boss. :o) Anyway here is some pictures of what I have so far of the baby...good night all. God is good, God is Great!!!!

the tests...2 in one night and one the next morning...lol



4 weeks...just the egg sac and the beginnings of the baby

14 weeks, all you can see is the head. The baby wouldn't stop moving. I am excited in March, I get to find out what it is.

Forth of July

Where do I start...
We had the kids and went over to a friends house for food, fun, swimming, fireworks, & friends... There is nothing better than that!!! Matt even had his first scuba lessons from one of ours friends, I am even going to try it for myself at a later date. This was definitely the best 4th that we have ever had. I can't wait to go back and do it all again...

Missing The Kids & Thankful For Matt...

Two weeks ago the kids moved back with mom and it has been hard getting use to not having the toys all over the floor, noise and them needing something all the time...lol. Matt and I are getting to know how it feels to talk to each other again...lol and I will have to say it is cool to fall in love with him all over again. I know now why I married him, he is a great dad and partner in crime.

It was an experienced for me to have a 10 year old and a 4 year old all at once, but I loved it and would do it all over again. For a short period of time I was mom and loved it. Thank God for this experience and my husband. We make a great team and with the kids we have a great family. I can't wait to expand my family.

The kids

These are my babies. Tyler is the oldest, he is 10. Jayci is the baby and is 4. Tyler is into video games, Pokemon, ect....the normal stuff a little boy would like. Jayci aka princess is into anything princess, barbie, anything that is small enough for the cat to push under the door...lol. Both are very talented, they both draw all the time and both are very funny. They carbon copies of Matt and I wouldn't trade them for the world. As they grow I learn more and more, they are defiantly getting me ready to have young ones in the house. I can't wait.

The Beginning...

Matt and I met believe it or not on the computer through yahoo messenger. We were both going through a divorce so I guess you could say we are perfect for each other. We started talking and I met his wonderful kids. We moved to the Yukon, OK area and married shortly after and the rest is history.

Matt has two great kids, Tyler and Jayci. Tyler is 10 and Jayci is 4. I am excited about having them in my life and hoping by the end of the year, Matt and I can have one of our own or one on the way. There isn't anything I would do for them.

Almost 3 years ago, we got a second chance at love and life. We have met many people that have been a blessing to our marriage. There isn't a time that I don't feel blessed from God for the people that have come into our life. There will be more, the more life goes on....hopefully soon I can put news about a little one...

God is good, God is great